whatever we had we don't have any more

For a while, I tell myself if I just sit here for long enough it'll start to happen, I just have to be patient, but I can only do that for so long before I just feel ridiculous and turn off the computer, but then I still sit there for a little bit, as if maybe now that I couldn't do it it might happen, a kind of cheat, but it's not the kind of thing you can cheat, now, is it.